Reflections...

Mack and his cousins on the Ellison's side!


My handsome boy ready for church.


Dad and Mack building a snowman.

Since my blog is my journal of sorts I have been writing a lot about thoughts I have been having about this season in my life called motherhood. My mom gave me this awesome book about the unlikely truths of motherhood and I love it. It has helped me tremendously. Last night I read about trusting in the Lord that he will help you raise children that he has trusted you to have. Instead of asking the Lord for help I just complain to him about my frustrations.
Last night I realized how much the Lord has blessed me. Blessed me not by the world's standards but by his standards and in ways that I and my family need at this time in our lives and if I had just a little more faith and trust in him I would recognize it more.
By the world's standard according to my age (which I am not going to give away) I should be in a home that I own. I am not and probably will not be until my kids are grown and I can work more than 10 hours a week. But the Lord has blessed me with a roof over my head, living in a family house that we pay little rent where I can be a stay at home mother. The world looks down on paying rent but I see it as a blessing of not owing a huge mortgage payment at this time in our lives when we can't afford it.
The world would have me believe I am of little worth being a stay at home mom, but the Lord rejoices in my work as a mom. This is something I struggle with daily. I worked, went to college and lived selfishly for 10 years on my own and now me is the last thing I think about in a day. When all is said and done...my kids, husband, family and gospel are going to be the best things I ever had in life...not cars, homes, jewelery, clothes, etc.
I trust and have faith in the Lord that if I keep paying my tithing I will someday own a home, have enough money to not worry about paying the bills each month and how we are going to make it and pay for groceries. But somehow each month we have enough and food on the table and diapers on our kids. Not much for savings but enough to live above most in the world. I am so grateful for that.


Gunnar exhausted and there is nothing better than sleeping on dads chest!