This post is all about getting my frustrations out. Mack is sick with another ear infection. Monday night he had a fever of 105 so now he is on antibiotics which seems to be helping. What I don't understand is how he got sick. We don't go anywhere. For the most part I keep me kids home. He hasn't been to nursery for weeks. So where is he getting sick at? Is it coming from my home? I have washed my sheets and disinfected my home several times? Is it from getting shots. He got both the flu shot and swine flu shot. Did that cause the virus? I want Mack to enjoy this Christmas season and I would like Rock and I to enjoy it too. Do I take him to parties or keep him home?
I think most of my frustrations come from not sleeping at night. Mack is up every couple of hours cause his ears and body hurts and Gunnar is up to get fed. I honestly don't know how to get him full. I breast feed and formula feed and he doesn't seem content ever. When Rock was a baby he never felt full either so his doctor had him on whole milk at a month old. Now I am not about to give Gunnar whole milk but I am feeding him every hour so it seems.
So my other frustration is the whole breast feeding thing. I want to give Gunnar the best milk I can and I feel like breast milk is it but I have invested so much into trying to produce enough milk. $50 for a lactation specialist to evaluate me, $200 for a pump, $50 for herbal supplements, and I am pumping after a feed to keep the milk flowing. I just don't know what more I can do. People look at me like I am an idiot and don't know what I am talking about not being able to produce enough milk. I got to stop stressing about it and relax. It is just so frustrating.
Okay the last thing I am frustrated about is my teeth and dentists. Growing up I had a great dentist who I trusted and made my crooked teeth look great. He retired and was replaced by a dentist I thought I could trust.....well I was wrong. This dentist has cost my family lots of money in unnecessary repairs and faulty repairs. He told me I had several small cavities. I decided to get a second opinion and found I didn't have any cavities. He put on a cap that didn't need to be there, the cap breaking and not I had to get the tooth pulled and a bridge in my mouth. What a pain. So while Mack is sick, I am in pain from my tooth.
I know this is part of life but this is my month to be frustrated!!
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You precious woman! This is my promise to every new mom...
"Everything will seem much better when you start getting sleep!"
Somehow, it just seems easier when you are sleeping. Good Luck and vent whenever you need!
Oh Shanie! I've had some of your same frustrations. Nursing Ellee went so well and then came Emelyn! :) It was so frustrating not to produce the amount of milk that I had with Ellee. I felt like I was doing everything the same, but my body just wasn't cooperating. You can feel good that you're doing the best you can!
As for the dentist. AAA! Frustrating! Elliott and I just went to go get our teeth cleaned. They didn't even do X-rays (they did them 6 months ago and only do them once a year at that dentist) and it cost us $100...after what our insurance paid. Granted...our insurance only covers 50% (I think). A hundred bucks to floss my teeth and have the dentist give them a look-see and say, "They look good." Kind of dumb.
I hope your little guy gets feeling better and that you all have a GREAT holiday season!
Hang in there! You are doing great. Good luck!
That stinks! You go ahead and be frustrated and vent to us. We love you and want to help in any way we can (and yes I feel comfortable speaking collectively). Keep trying with the milk but don't stress. Just do what you can. Millions of babies are bottle fed and do just fine. My pediatrictian was bottle fed and he's incredible!
I love you!
I hear you with the frustrations. I'm taking Dykell to a different doctor today. she had to come home from school again, and I swear I feel like I have been pregnant from years.
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