Atonement...

For the past few months I have been feeling very depressed. I have been complaining about life not being fair. Why are some blessed with financial freedom and others live in anxiety and stress just to make ends meat? Why do little kids have to be abused, why is their infedielity in marriage, why do people swindle money out of innocent people, etc. I can go on and on about the CRAP we have to live with in this world that is not FAIR at all to the victims.
My unfairness in this world has been from the decisions of my husband before we met. (He is okay with me writing this because hopefully others will not have the attitude that he has and that others will realize that one of the BIGGEST LIES Satan feeds us in that "it is my life, I can do what I want with it and nobody else will get hurt." and then we make a bad decision he feeds us the lie that it is not our fault but our families, friends, and anyone else we can blame it on. That is BULL CRAP)
He was not at all financially responsible. He didn't know about some of his past things that he owed because of his coma and having to relearn everything and the last thing on his mind was about what he owed to people. He was on social security benefits so no collection agencies or other institutions was sending notices. When we were dating none of this was brought up or talked about because he nor I knew about it? Well now that we are married, he has a job, and filing taxes now the collections are wanting their money.
So here I am wondering and so angry at the fact that he was not at all financially responsible. His attitude was everyone is out to get me instead of taking responsibility for his choice and lack of responsibility to pay what he owed. This makes me soooo MAD and ANGRY. You made the choice, you used the phone minutes, you drove drunk, you drove over the speed limit, you choose to take drugs, you choose not to pay your truck payment so Quit blaming everyone else for YOUR Choices!
Now we have paid for past DUI's thousands and thousands of dollars, hundreds of dollars for two tickets in Oregon in 2001 that was never taken care of. We are recieving collection bills from verizon and t-mobile on phone services never paid for. We because now I am my pay checks are going to pay for this CRAP and yet I didn't make those choices and I am partly paying for them. Instead of saving for a house, a new car, savings etc. and building our future we are paying for lack of responsibility and for the STUPID decisions he made.
See how I felt for a long time how life is not fair. And then I learned this important lesson.
Christ died for our sins. Was crucified, suffered in Gethsemene and suffered much pain for something he did not do. He was perfect, didn't sin and yet paid for all our sins. This was not fair and yet I don't think he ever felt or said "this is not fair"
It is not fair that other people have to pay for abuse, for pornography, fraud, etc. But it is how we apply the atonement in our lives that helps us overcome the unfairness in this world. I am thankful for the atonement.
For me the atonement has helped me overcome this unfairness of someone else's bad decisions and for Rock the atonement has helped him overcome his addictions and become more financially responsible. What and amazing gift.