Friday, August 1, 2014

Do I trust the Lord...Yet again I have to face this test of my faith

August 1st...Rock came home from work this morning and wants to try and go work somewhere else.  He doesn't know if Mega Diamond will hire him after putting in 90 days.  Here we had faith again that this job would work out and had faith that after 90 days he would get hired on and that we would have insurance for our family.  Yet again we do not know if that will happen.  I am tired of going from one job to another having hope and faith that all will work out only to get disappointed and my hope and faith scattered again.  Rock works hard and yet to no avail does it help us out at all.  Why can't something good happen for our family?  After so many prayers of gratitude for the job he has and so many prayers on behalf of our family and temple trips, fasting paying tithing, still going to church each week, serving the best in your calling, etc and to no avail it can be very disheartening and frustrating.  It really does test your faith in the Lord.   All we want to do is provide for our family.  I just don't understand the will of the Lord for our family?  I am striving to understand but I just don't understand.  What does he want for us.  We are striving to work hard.
I applied to be a Support Specialist again for Stake Institute and really had faith-again that this would work out and help our family out only to be disappointed yet again.  I don't know how many more disappointments I can take?

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